as i said 2 days ago, this is a really tough time for me. and today is really difficult. i have so many mixed emotions right now. i wish russ were here to celebrate his birthday with me yet i know he is in a better place, and actually able to realize it is his birthday. and he is with my mom.
october birthdays have always been special in my family. besides my mom and dad's, mine is also in october. when i was growing up and my sister used to get mad at me she would tell me that i wasn't part of the family since i had blond hair and the others had dark hair. i used to then tell her that she wasn't special because her birthday wasn't in october like the rest of our family. but i still have 3 october birthdays to celebrate, mark's is the 17th and bob's is the 24th.
i have SO many fond memories of the 6 of us celebrating our birthdays together. russ and i would always try to see who could be the first one to call each other on our birthdays. for a while it got a little ridiculous as to the hour we were getting up just to outdo the other. yet it was something we always looked forward to.
i got through my mom's birthday just as i'm sure i will get through russ' today. oh, did i mention it's also my birthday today? i was blessed to have been born on his birthday. it will be something i will cherish forever. happy birthday russ. i love you!
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Happy birthday Russ and Happy birthday Nancy. I can just picture the two of you getting up before the sun to try to be the first one to call.
How absolutely perfect that you share this day. I hope you do something very special today to celebrate, both for you and for Russ.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Nance -
Happy birthday to you! Enjoy the day as you can. You certainly were a wonderful gift to Russ and Gene when you were born and, through the years, gave them so much happiness and love. YOU done good!
Love,
Mooch
Happy Birthday Russ!
Happy Birthday Nancy!
You really are a special woman Nancy. Your father was and still is so proud of you. You two must have had so much fun celebrating your birthdays together. Its great that you have had that and you always will have it. He would want you to be happy today not sad.
If you do find yourself getting down though remember we are all here for you. Please have a great birthday. <3 ya
Ah yes - I thought I had read something about you and he sharing the same special day in your previous posts. So bittersweet, Nancy.
I pray you can now begin to form new memories and still hang on to some of the old ones. Daddies are so special.
Thinking of you on this special day.
I had no idea! "Happy Birthday Nancy!" "Happy Birthday Russ!" And by the way, thoughts & prayers are faster than telephone calls, so, you win!
I know all of these firsts will be tough Nancy. I hope that knowing you have so many friends & fans (yup fans!) will help you through these next couple of weeks, and months.
I know I will be here for you, no matter how you are feeling!
N.Mc. OOOXXXOOOO
P.S. Maybe you could have your family do a 'toast' to Russ, and your dear Mamma today, too.
Oh my. Praying for you Nancy.
Happy Birthday -- I just found your blog and I look forward to reading it. My sympathies on the passing of your parents. Must be tough. My mom was just diagnosed w/ AD. D
Happy Birthday Nancy, and to Grrr and to Aunt Gene. Love, love, love you!
Still thinking & praying for you Nancy, daily. One day at a time, dear.
And tonight, at Church, full of others praying too!
N.Mc. OOOXXXOOOO
Happy Birthday, Russ and Happy Birthday, Nancy. ((HUGS)) Hope you did something special to make the day even more memorable for you.
Happy Birthday Nancy! Your post brought tears to my eyes as I know how much you must miss Russ. I hope you were able to enjoy your day as I'm sure it was quite bittersweet.
Happy Belated Birthday, Nancy!
I can totally relate with you, missing your Dad on his special day. My son was born the day after my Dad’s birthday, and now each party for my little guy reminds me that his grandpa cannot be there to celebrate with us.
I read where you said that your Dad is sharing this birthday with your mom. And I think, “How wonderful that he is able to be whole again and with his love”. That is a beautiful thing!
Thanks Nancy, thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings so freely...You are helping me know that I can do this caretaking thing...AND that I too will survive its inevitable outcome.
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